I find that I have this bad habit of always checking how many pages are left to read until the next chapter when I'm reading any kind of book.  It's funny because I often tell myself that I love to read.

I thought I did so well on the Chemistry exam, like 100%, but it turns out that I got a much lower mark than I expected.  An 82%.  I looked over my exam and the answer keys and it turns out I've made calculations error in that I did the calculations right but wrote down the wrong digit, and misread the directions and calculated an answer for Celcius instead of Farenheight.  I missed 19pts based on stupid mistakes.  I am sooo upset.  I was so anxious during the exam that I've overlooked things.  I studied so hard until I knew everything back to back and did good on the review sheet.....and this is what I end up with.

Which Final Fantasy Gal Are You? Your Result: You are Princess Garnet Til Alexandros 17th FF9   is the heroine of Final Fantasy IX. Garnet is the Princess of Alexandria -- one of three major nations located on Gaia's Mist Continent. She is the only heir to the royal throne. A beautiful young woman, Garnet is well spoken and highly educated, but also possessed of a strong will and a stubborn streak. However, due to her sheltered upbringing she is also shy and quite naive. In battle, she can cast white magic and summon eidolons. You have the spirit of travelling and you like it but you don't have the freedom that's why there is a Zidane Tribal always near you
You are Eiko Carol FF9
You are Tifa Lockhart FF7
You are Aeris Gainborough FF7
You are Rinoa Heartilly FF8
You are Selphie Tilmitt FF8
You Are Yuna of FFX
You are Rikku FFX
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Cool!  I love Dagger!  Heh.  The fact that Eiko is the 2nd most highly matched is quite bizarre.

The first few minutes while watching it I almost stopped because I thought it was going to be stupid.  But then I changed my mind.  It's actually a really good movie.  I love it now.  It really made me feel better and opened my eyes a little towards life.  A good tonic.

I just bought SOLDIER key chain for 19.99 plus 5 dollar shipping so this better be worth it....nah it's worth it. I can't wait for it to arrive in the mail. Would be so cool. =D I hope it arrives in like, 2 days...argh lol I'm so impatient. x_x

Every time I open my mouth in class I feel like I just said something stupid.  Particularly in Statistics class the teacher keeps picking on me and I'm nervous, and I can't think straight.  Then I get some snickers or laughs.  Ugh.  I feel stupid.  I mean I know I get good grades but I can't help feeling stupid and my spirit has just lowered.

am I gaining like a pound each day?  That is faster than what I'd expected.  I am consuming around 2,000 calories a day.  My dad is telling me if I eat too much all of a sudden, it's not normal.  He says I'm fine and I shouldn't try to get fat because I'll be really fat by the time I get old.  >.>

Oh man I wasn't being very productive today, now I'll have to spend all the rest of tomorrow studying.

I have to write a 4 page paper about a time when I faced a moral dilemma.  It has to be a right versus right situation and I can't think of any, except for should I tell someone the truth or lie in order to save their feelings.  Maybe I'm underexposed.

I also have to study for upcoming midterm for Statistics.

After all this time of thinking I want to gain weight, I'm 5'2" and only weigh 95lbs, and never really setting a realistic goal for myself in order to reach it, I have finally decided from now on that I will sit down and write up the goals and commit myself to it.  I just came across an awesome site, Calorie Count Plus, which actually helps you keep track of the amount of calories you consume per day and the amount you need.  I'm sick of being called skinny.

My Statistic professor is really scary.  He's strict and he likes to keep on picking on everyone to answer the questions.  I like the fact that he actually cares about us learning, but oh the humiliation.  I actually have trouble following along in lectures so then when he asks I can't think straight and then it makes me look stupid. So it actually doesn't help me. >.<

I made it into the Dean's List woohoo!!!  I just got a congratulations letter from the dean and it made me so happy!  I have been anticipating this.  But just seeing it makes me feel satisfied and filled with even more pleasure as I see the letter of congratulations.  I hope to see my name in the Dean's List stuck to the wall in campus and in the newspaper.  Hah, prove to the people that I'm not dumb after all. =P

Now I must keep up with my grades for this quarter which has just started.  Statistics is a bit intimidating right now but I will work hard.  My goal is to ask questions whenever I don't get something.  For Math, the professor is very hard to understand with his heavy accent so now I may have to learn by the book and get outside help.  I don't have much of a choice.  For English, still too early to tell.  So far it doesn't seem so bad.